Month: July 2022

This morning,  after hearing the song, somewhat live, the song that I’ve Been repeating over and over In my head for days, to try and bring some peace within my head as well as the combination of a severe sinus infection and so much other chaos I finally relented and cried a little, because I am so exhausted and again in indiscibable sinus pain again even after my procedure back in april.

I was so surprised when you heard me and actually got up from where you were, came over and nuzzled my chin, then you sat on me and relaxed on the blanket.  Perhaps you do understand when humans are sad.

Maddie used to do that to, but now she is old. And can’t do much. When I was very ill back in the day, I would catch her watching me out of the corner of my eye. Sometimes she would even sit on me in the bed, not sleeping and just staring. When I would wake up sweating and shaking  a while later, she would still be in the same place staring, she never slept she only watched over me.

I must say (that when Maddie is gone) (hopefully not soon) that perhaps you be just as comforting and as concerned as she was.

It’s frightening for things to be in turmoil chaos sickness and  complete exhaustion isn’t it?

Meowmmy

I’m sorry that we all had to get upset today I had no idea that steam cleaning a small apartment would be this rough   on us.

And the steam cleaning due to the fleas that that horrible girl with her flea ridden kitten hidden in her backpack   brought in the apartment In 7 months ago

I had no other option but to try this since of course we have no where to go for the three hours it would take to fog the apartment
Sad

I figured you and maddie would just hide as you normally do, I never expected for you to completely panic. These men were here and they could have cared less about you or me.

The floor was wet and you were desperately trying to jump onto the counter, to reach the top of the refrigerator. I was thinking oh my God. Oh my God, I have never seen you go so berserk  and the men basically kept on working. You finally made it up to the other counter and hid in some boxes.

Tears began to drip down my face. And then the men called me outside, to try to push the price up more. While you were terrified

They kept me outside and with no feeling whatsoever for you they wanted to charge more and wanted me to put you two on the porch.

I still had tears in my eyes and I said no I’m not going to pay for this now. even though this already 700.00 steam cleaning for fleas will not be guaranteed.

I said I am crying now, and thinking do you care? Of course these men did not.

Finally I got back inside and found you hiding in the boxes. You were hollering   like I had never heard. I was crying softly I tried to calm you down, terrified you might have a heart attack.

I petted you and in silently prayed asked God to please help you. And then I whispered the 23 rd psalm and the lords prayer for us both.

As my anxiety was now reaching increasingly terrifying heights   I had been moving everything out of the apartment on my own and in the almost 100 degree heat.

Finally after these men left you and maddie calmed down. I didn’t. And still haven’t.

As I have to move everything in by myself later on.

I am sorry to us all and am so glad it is mostly over.

I will be 46 in two days. I will go the store most likely and purchase a regular cake   from the counter. As silly as it will look to the baker I will have them write happy birthday meowmmy in icing from max and maddie