Barely move or take care of Max

For four almost four years..I have been desperately trying to handle the cruel 😢 excruciating horrific undiagnosed facial pain. I have sat on this mattress for three years…all day… trying not to cry as I hold the heating pad or ice there..also I beg 😫 god (or whatever).for it to stop.

Things since I have written anything about it..are I still can’t eat..brush my teeth. I am extremely exhausted. I can move or take care of max.

Sometimes I do wish i wasn’t on this earth anymore because all i do id suffer . I have also started having some female problems that has been terrifying so who knows maybe I won’t ve

.and since I last wrote.i went to another sinus doctor (he said it was all tmj)

I went to the dentist three times…. one for my mouth guard. For 400 dollars. Another time for him to test for tmj… and try to fix it.. didn’t work..the last time.. he gave me some muscle relaxers for my jaw.. that solved nothing..so he says he needs to refer me to an oral.surgen

I had to find a primary care doctor which was another appointment not to long ago. For a referral to a pain specialist (that’s how things work in florida) yesterday I went to the pain doctor

He didn’t seem all that confident. But and now for another appointment he wants me to go get x-rays and mris of everything. He gave me no treatment yesterday. All.pain doctors postponed due to pain