Short Neurologist Visit during My Overnight Stay In the Emergency Room back In February. (for unbearable facial pain) (a little long)

Dear.Max

About two months ago, I was in  the emergency room again. This time, i stayed overnight. It  was quite frightening 🫣  being alone in the hospital 🏥

However, I had to gather my inner strength 💪 and fight the fear 😨

Dr. Jason Song “The only pain doctor I have ever been to) had me get an MRI of my brain. My neck and spine and my mouth.

Unfortunately, the previous couple of weeks, I had been in Dr. Songs office when he read the report on my 🧠 brain. The report showed that there was something on my brain called a menginoma. I was terrified 😨 and I  started crying in his office.

Dr. Song offered no sympathy, only telling me to get another Mri. My mother died way back in November of 2000 of an incurable brain tumor. So I panicked 😪 all this and now a possible brain tumor.

I did not want to be rolling around in this bed thinking I had a brain tumor  😫 (you have to go to an outside lab called Simonmed for another scan)  and  Simonmed couldn’t take me for another couple of weeks.  😒

A few days later, I was so weak I decided to try and drink a little bit of ensure for some protein (as of today, June 8th) 

I have had no meat for two years, and I am definitely suffering the effects. Unfortunately, the ensure has 10 percent salt 🧂 so I should have known I shouldn’t drink it. (But It was at a catch-22) 😬

Suddenly, the most excrusing pain came over me after I did so. I grabbed my head and hit the floor in agony. 😪

I had no desire to go to the ER, especially by ambulance, but I had no other way to get there. 😪 because I am horrified and frightened when I have to call an ambulance 🚑

I was afraid 😨 it was this legion on my brain, causing the pain. The pain seemed different.

When I got there, the doctor said that these legions were always non-cancerous. I can’t tell you how relieved I was. 

He wanted me to stay overnight so that we would get another Mri, and then a neurologist would come see me in the morning 🌄

As soon as he left and I tried to explain what type of pain i had, no one knew what I was talking about as usual..

So, I was given medication for migraine and nausea, which only made my pain expanitally worse.😪, so I lay there on the gurney, silently crying to myself with the familiar ice bag I had brought from home 🏡 I felt like I was in the twilight zone

Before I went upstairs, a  technician came into my room to ask me if I had brought any pills 💊 with me.

Unfortunately, I knew that I was going to have to tell a lie about this question 😕  I hesitated for a second, and then I said, “No.” I don’t particularly like to lie, but in this case, it was necessary.

The hospital 🏥  had a rule about this issue, but even so, I had all my psychiatric pills 💊 in my purse. The hospital staff would have taken all the pill bottles and  would have never given them back to me, I could not risk that.

After several hours between wake and sleep and a racing mind, someone came to take me upstairs

When I entered , I sat in my wheelchair ♿️ with my icepack still on my face. I noticed that this was a double room, and I could hear a large family group laughing 😃 and carrying on. I felt a little sad 😔 and a bit lonely 🙁  but I knew like all my other appointments. If I just gathered my courage, I could do this by myself. However, I really missed Max and was worried about him.

As far as I could remember, we had never an entire night away from each other.

TO BE CONTINUED