

Today, I was coming back from another dental appointment, sitting in the passenger seat while my “helper” drove.
Since I rarely ever got out of the house due to the pain, I decided to open my eyes and really look around for a few minutes.🤔
Even though I had been this route many times, something seemed to dawn on me. So many people were going on with their everyday lives. Despite the fact that I wasn’t able to do the same thing.
This suddenly seemed strange to me. 😒
While I have been lying in bed for almost three years now, traffic lights have been changing, and the palm trees have been swaying
Things have been moving steadily along 😒
When my ‘helper’ turned the corner, there was the familiar yellow McDonald’s, which I never thought much about. 😲
However, today I began to picture the people ordering their lunches, some of them laughing and 😃 As well as the wonderful aroma of onions, salted fries, and sizzling hamburgers,
I wondered what the folks were happily chatting about when they sat down at their tables and began to eat.
Directly next to the McDonald’s is the 7-Eleven, the one where I used to go to fill up my tank when I had a vehicle.
Sometimes, I would go inside to pick up a snack or two.😀
I would walk up and down the aisles of goodies, trying to decide on candy or potato chips.
Then, I would pull into the Publix grocery store in order to pick out some fresh fruits: strawberries,🍓 apples,🍎 blueberries,🫐 and peaches.🍑 Sometimes, once in a while, if I think about it really hard, I can still remember how sweet and delicious they tasted.
However, unfortunately, that was then, and this is now. I slowly closed my eyes again, not wanting to face my own reality. Coming back back home to bed and quickly lay down, praying that today I could possibly sleep a little and maybe find a small amount of relief from my constant pain 😢
I suppose sometimes it really hits me that I am not really a part of this thing we call life anymore, but the world keeps turning even so.
Honestly, I just can’t seem to wrap my head around this concept. 😕 it is just really strange 😕
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