LIVING WITH CHRONIC PAIN WITH ANNA AND MAX

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  • CHEESE OMELET 🧀 AND WHAT I “DID”AND “DIDNT LEARN IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM LAST WEEK

    Letter to Max

    Dear Max,

    Being in the emergency room last week sure was not fun 😕 especially when it appears I came out worse than when I went in 😪

    My initial reasons for going were not for my facial pain (because I knew there was nothing they could do for that) or for my stomach issues, something that I have also dealt with for most of my life (severe Ibs with constipation) They were for weight loss, fatigue and some female issues

    After being home now for three days since  being under observation for two days and admitted for two days, I only discovered a few things 

    One, I can become hypoglycemic quite quickly, after my very first low blood sugar attack, in which my sugar was 57, and I felt as though I was going out of my body. 😪  and through the ceiling (extremely new and frightening feeling) 🫣

    Two,  the “new pain pills the doctor gave me (more opiates) morphine and oxytocin have made me so constipated that I still can not eat at all. They also do not relieve the facial pain 😪

    Three, take heed when the staff says you have an ileus ( the intestines stop working properly leading to a blockage in the digestive tract) vs having severe constipation because having a tube put down your throat and into your stomach while awake is quite excruciating as well as, in my case, quite. unnecessary.

    Four, I  did consume my first actual “meal” in likely years. It was a creamy and gooey CHEESE OMELET with some breakfast potatoes 🥔  I don’t remember when I have tasted something, so yummy 😋

    I  also consumed my first real sugar in some dannon yogurt 😋 and some fruit 😋 it tasted like heaven 😋

    Five, Unfortunately, however, in doing so, I was reminded how much these foods trigger pain flare-ups and was again reminded that these things should never be consumed again. 😢

    Now, I have been home for three days, and my stomach is much worse (i.e., I am unable to eat a bite), and the reasons I initially went in, the unexplained weight loss, the extreme fatigue, and the female issues are no different. 

    I have not been able been able to to cleanse my stomach of any waste products whatsoever since I left the hospital 😪

    Laxatives and fiber  do not work for me. and I am beginning to fear having to go back and developing an actual ileus (for which you need surgery, and that was the reason for the stomach tube)😪

    Why couldn’t they have corrected this when I was there? It’s been a really rough two weeks. I just pray things might get better 🙏

    Meowmmy ❤️

  • Cozy Log Cabin 😀 Perfect Place 👌

    What does your ideal home look like?

    My ideal home 🏡 would definitely be a little cabin in the woods, surrounded by trees 🌳 with a freshwater stream flowing nearby. and a small screened in front porch with a swing and some comfortable chairs 💺 so I could sit outside and watch the sun rise with my morning coffee ☕️

    The cabin would also have a fireplace, so it would be extra cozy in the fall and the winter.🥰

    I would only need a few rooms 😀 just a bedroom, bathroom, living room, and kitchen. However, even though it would be simple and rustic, I would still like to have modern conveniences 😀

    On the windows 🪟 would be flower 🌼 boxes full of flowers of all kinds 😀 and outside, I would have a rose 🌹 garden as well as a small space for growing vegetables like tomatoes 🍅 and carrots 🥕

    This would be the perfect 👌 place for my space 😀

  • Awareness 😀

    Why do you blog?

    I like to blog 😊 because I hope to make a few folks aware of the issue of having chronic pain. Hopefully, I might be able to help someone as well 😀 and perhaps make a friend 😀

  • Chronic Pain Reminder Quote

    It definitely helps me to look at this quote every day.

  • Around 2 or 3 am

    What’s your favorite time of day?

    My favorite 😍 time of the day or “night” is in the wee hours of the morning 🌄 when I am unable to sleep 😴 Sometimes, I am able to hear the distant sound of a low mournful train whistle in the distance if I listen 🎶 hard enough.

    Max (the cat) cuddled up in his fluffy rainbow 🌈 bed, snoring softly beside me. The glow of the TV flickering in the background ✨️ A light rain shower 🚿 tapping outside the window 🪟 A gentle breeze blowing through the palm trees 🌴 🌳 It is quite peaceful 😀 and gives me a  feeling of warmth and security 😀



  • Chronic pain specific therapy. Is there such a thing?.

    I have been doing some research lately because I was curious if there are therapists who specialize only in chronic pain. When I went to reddit, I saw a post 📫 where someone had mentioned a doctor like that.
    However, when I went to youtube, I didn’t see anything similar.
    It appears to “my knowledge” that there isn’t any therapy specialty that is chronic pain specific or living with chronic pain specific.

    I also asked my psychiatrist, and she said she had never heard of this either,so I suppose the lady on reddit was misinformed.

    While it is certainly true that a regular therapist can help you with your depression and anxiety surrounding the issue, I myself believe it would be quite difficult to find a therapist who really understands the condition

    As an example, I worked with a licensed clinical social worker about a year ago, but only for a few sessions. I, of course, told her all about the condition, but even so, it seemed by her conversation that she just could not understand the concept of being in pain all the time.

    I had mentioned to her that many simple things are difficult for me due to the condition. As I continued, she seemed to have not particularly like what she had heard, so instead of asking if I possibly needed a medical nurse for help, she threatened to call a mental health agency instead.

    This was certainly quite unfortunate 😕

    So, in conclusion, it appears there are no therapists who only deal with chronic pain. Perhaps I am wrong, but to my knowledge, I dont know of any.

    However, possibly by trial and error, you can find one who understands and is caring about your condition.

  • Motivational quote for those with chronic pain 💪

    Be proud of yourself 💪

  • You tube short on criteria for Atypical Face Pain for information purposes

  • Introduction to Living with Chronic Pain with Anna and Max (the cat)

    Hi, my name is Anna,  I am in my 40s, and I suffer from chronic pain in my face. Unfortunately, it has been going on for years.

    In this journal, I write about my unsuccessful trips to doctors, my frustrations, and my fear as well as provide some informative information, some quirky daily promts some cute stories as well as some serious ones all with the hope for a normal life again one day.

    Currently, after my last neurologist appointment, I still have not been diagnosed. At this point, after suffering for so long, the constant pain has worn me down. I am no longer able to do most activities, 

    I am not able to drive anymore, so I have lost my independence. I have lost my individually as well, and I grieve for all these things. At this point it has become so disabling that I am not able to eat, or really take care of myself, I am in and out of the emergency room, and concerned that I will be removed from my current apartment and sent to a nursing home without Max the cat 🐈

    Any type of chronic pain is a real condition and one of the number one reasons people visit their doctors. I hope you, as the reader, are able to understand this issue better and hopefully be able to sympathize with others….

    Thank you 😊 for visiting, and please feel free to subscribe!

    Anna and Max the Cat 🐈

    AN AI PHOTO 📸 OF MAX THAT A FRIEND DID

  • Health restoration and talking animals

    Describe your life in an alternate universe.

    My answer isn’t very interesting or imaginative, but in my alternate universe, my health would be completely restored,  The entire new universe would be covered with flowers, gardens  butterflies, and trees 🌳 always  beautiful, peaceful and calming  😊 

    Here, there is only one human who is surrounded and all kinds of talking animals 😀 and we would spend our days running, playing, laughing, and cuddling together ❤️

  • Chronic pain ruins people’s lives: Highlight from The Chronic Pain Epidemic. Youtube video about two minutes long

    I have been searching for more chronic pain explanations here on YouTube lately. I didn’t really want to get to a really depressing side of the issue, but of course, this can be for all serious illnesses, but this is what happens to a great deal of chronic pain patients.  It’s actually interesting, though. It mentions how badly many chronic pain patients have been treated by doctors (which has been my experience). I have mentioned several of the things in my posts that they talk about here, such as loss of relationships, fear of flare-ups, and other concerns 😟 She also speaks about pain medications

  • Max, I’m feeling a bit low.

    Dear Max, sometimes I get really low about things. I don’t mind living alone at all. In fact, I rather enjoy it. It’s quite peaceful and quiet, I try to keep my spirits up, but on the days that I feel like im sinking into a bit of a depression 🫥  I sure wish you could talk. 

    Meowmmy

  • THE MAGICAL CAVE-PART TWO OF TRAINTACKS IN THE SMOKEY MOUNTAINS

    When we left off, Max and Anna were walking down an isolated train track 🛤 in the Smokey Mountains of Tennessee. They had disappeared 😕 into the fog 🌁 searching  for their next adventure.

    Once the fog had dissipated, and the sun’s 🌞 rays began to shine through the thick mystic green mountains, ⛰️

    Max and I were getting hot and tired. We both sat down on the wooden slats of the railroad tracks. 🛤’What are we going to do now, Max?’ We have been walking on the tracks for so long now without seeing a single thing.

    Earlier today, we  had both reached into our quilted magical knapsacks, and to our shock, they were empty. ‘We have to find some food soon,’🍔 Max nodded. I wiped the sweat from my forehead, and I sure could use a bath. 🌊

    After we had rested,  we both nodded in agreement that we should keep going after all.🛤

    Even though we were hungry, it certainly was a beautiful day.🌤 The birds🐦 were chirping, the bees🦥 were buzzing, and the sky was a clear blue with white fluffy clouds as far as the eye could see.⛅️

    No sooner had we gathered our knapsacks than we could hear a sound in the distance🛤 ‘Look, Max,’ I said, pointing to some water cascading down into small pools and gathering under the rocks. ‘It must be coming from the top of the mountain.’🌳

    Just then, the clouds began to thicken into a misty white fog that shimmered in the summer sun.🌞 Up ahead, the sweet, succulent smell of yellow and white honeysuckle blossoms

    We followed the glorious scent until we finally reached a bridge, which led to the mouth of a cave, we both peeked inside. ‘Max, this looks like something out of a fairytale,’ I said aloud. We cautiously stepped onto the bridge, and as soon as we did, a refreshing waft of cool air began to surround us.

    Down below was a deep, crystal-clear, blue-green lake. Up above, there were stalactites of shimmering, clear white quartz. As we got closer to the other side of the bridge, we saw more stalactites. Stalactites of every color of the rainbow: purple, pink, blue, and white.

    they shined just like rubies or emeralds. What is this place? “I said aloud to Max, I’ve never seen anything like this.

    Once we reached the end of the bridge, we stepped onto a small island with the lake surrounding us. To our right and off to the side, we saw a small, old, brown wooden pier; we could hear it creaking and cracking with each lap of the blue-green water. Along with an old wooden rowboat that was tied to it.

    “Hmm, odd that this is here,” I said out loud to Max. “I wonder where it came from?” “Let’s take a look.” We both cautiously stepped inside as the boat creaked and cracked beneath us. I rowed out towards the middle; it was then that we could see some very large fish.

    Our mouths watered at the sight below. “Boy, I sure wish we could catch some. Perhaps our magical knapsacks will get their magic back if we have something to fill them with. I wonder how we can. Perhaps I’ll make a wish.”

    The fish didn’t seem like boring old normal ones; they almost seemed human as we watched them jumping, splashing, and playing. They actually seemed to be laughing. “They sure are having fun, aren’t they?”

    Not too long after that, I seemed to notice that my knapsack felt much heavier. “How about yours, Max?” He nodded. “Perhaps my wish came true.”

    Our stomachs were growling, so  we opened the bag, and inside, there were plates and plates of steaming, crispy fried catfish. There were even side dishes of fluffy homemade biscuits slathered in butter and big heaping cups of freshly picked green beans. “The knapsacks are magic again!”

    All they needed was some rejuvenation, kindness, and love from this special place, just like we did when we first stepped inside.

    With our bellies full, we gathered our things together. We could still smell the sweet scent of honeysuckle blossoms as we walked back towards the bridge. Above us, the stalactites and stalemates suddenly began to twinkle and shine as if they were happily telling us goodbye and wishing us luck on our journeys

    We waved back sad to leave this magical magnificent special place.

    See what happens if you just believe
    Max nodded, jumped into arms, and we gave each other a huge hug

    We went back across the bridge content and were happy and thankful for the help.

    As we got to the mouth of the cave, we felt felt warm and fuzzy all over, just like being wrapped in the comfort and security of a familiar blanket.

    When we stepped back outside onto the train tracks with our knapsacks now full of food, dusk had begun to fall in the mystic mountains. The sun was setting below in soft pinkish colors.


    The fireflies were illuminating the sky with a golden light, and the cicadas were buzzing in the trees. The fog once again

    began to creep in around us. I suppose we should find somewhere to sleep soon, as.we continued down the tracks we I said out loud.

    We both turned around to take one last look and we couldn’t see the magnificence cave anymore! It must have disappeared I  exclaimed, ready to reappear to the next set of weary travelers.

    And we vanished once again into the fog.

  • Train Tracks in the Smokey Mountains.. “Stories I make up “inside my head”  when it’s a bad pain day”

    PART ONE

    Great Smokey Mountains at Night 🌙

    Sometimes, when the pain 😢 is so excruciating, like today and all I can do is take deep breaths, praying that it will pass, as well as desperately trying to go to sleep with an ice bag, I make up stories “inside my head” in order to keep myself somewhat calm.😮‍💨 Sometimes, it works, but unfortunately, most of the time, it doesn’t 😕

    One of the stories involves Max and me walking down what seems like an isolated railroad track 🛤 in the Smoky Mountains ⛰️ of Tennessee, under a bright glowing moon 🌙 and a soothing inky black sky. The night air smells sweet, and the fireflies glow around us. We look up and see what looks like a million twinkling stars. The misty fog hangs low over the green mountains. In the distance, we can hear the faint whistle of a lonely long-forgotten train as it echoes through the night 🌙.

    As we continue walking, we can see some puffy grayish clouds ⛅️, and then it starts to rain softly. The falling water refreshes us and makes the grass all around smell freshly cut.

    We each decide that we should look for a cozy dry place to spend the night 🌙. We are each carrying only small knapsacks, but they miraculously have everything we need.

    We both head towards a long-abandoned overpass that has been overtaken by soft, leafy, bright green kudzu. After making an area for ourselves among the leaves 🍃 😌, we open our patchwork quilted knapsacks.

    To discover our meal for the night 🌙 😋, I give Max generous helpings of rare roast beef cooked and dripping with spicy onion gravy. 🌰 The delicious smell wafts through the sweet night air 😋. As he begins to eat, I hand him plates of macaroni and cheese 🧀 with the cheese bubbling and sizzling on top until it is yellow and brown in color.

    For the last course, I hand him plates of southern-style mashed potatoes 🥔 😋, smooth and thick and milky white with a layer of fresh yellow melted butter 🧈 on top, which melts in our mouths and dribbles down our chins.

    After supper 🍽, we pull some old, weathered but comfortable sleeping 😴 bags from our pack. The thickening night air is cool but not cold, so we do not need a fire 🔥. I open my sleeping bag, and Max crawls in; he is fuzzy and soft, and we cuddle up together as more fog rolls in from the rain. We drift off to sleep, content, and happy with full bellies and another distant train whistle echoing through the air.

    At around 5 AM, Max’s soft nuzzle awakens me. He motions that we should be getting on with our journey. The rain has stopped ✋️, and nature sounds fill the air; frogs and birds, cicadas abound, having been refreshed by the small shower 🚿.

    We pack up our knapsacks slowly 🐌 because, after all, there really is no hurry. We don’t have any plans, and we don’t exactly know where we are going.

    We climb back up onto the tracks with our knapsacks. We both nod at each other in agreement, and it isn’t too long before we disappear into the mountains surrounded by glistening white fog, hoping for more things to bring us peace and joy. 😄

  • Another possible cause and contributor to my Atypical Facial Pain..Spinal Stenosis or Cervicalgia ( it is also quite painful 😒)

  • It is just so strange 😳 that the world keeps going..

    A POPULAR SHOPPING 🛍 MALL HERE IN KISSIMMEE
    PALM TREES ALONG THE ROAD.

    Today, I was coming back from another dental appointment, sitting in the passenger seat while my “helper” drove.

    Since I rarely ever got out of the house due to the pain, I decided to open my eyes and really look around for a few minutes.🤔

    Even though I had been this route many times, something seemed to dawn on me.  So many people were  going on with their everyday lives. Despite the fact that I wasn’t able to do the same thing.

    This suddenly seemed strange to me. 😒

    While I have been lying in bed for almost three years now, traffic lights have been changing, and the palm trees have been swaying

    Things have been moving steadily along 😒

    When my ‘helper’ turned the corner, there was the familiar yellow McDonald’s, which I never thought much about. 😲

    However, today I began to picture the people ordering their lunches, some of them laughing and 😃 As well as  the wonderful aroma of onions, salted fries, and sizzling hamburgers,

    I wondered what the folks were happily chatting about when they sat down at their tables and began to eat.

    Directly next to the McDonald’s is the 7-Eleven, the one where I used to go to fill up my tank when I had a vehicle.

    Sometimes, I would go inside to pick up a snack or two.😀

    I would walk up and down the aisles of goodies, trying to decide on candy or potato chips.
    Then, I would pull into the Publix grocery store in order to pick out some fresh fruits: strawberries,🍓 apples,🍎 blueberries,🫐 and peaches.🍑 Sometimes, once in a while, if I think about it really hard, I can still remember how sweet and delicious they tasted.

    However, unfortunately, that was then, and this is now. I slowly closed my eyes again, not wanting to face my own reality. Coming back  back home to bed and quickly lay down, praying that today I could possibly sleep a little and maybe find a small amount of relief from my constant pain  😢

    I suppose sometimes it really hits me that I am not really a part of this thing we call life anymore, but the world keeps turning even so.

    Honestly, I just can’t seem to wrap my head around this concept. 😕 it is just  really strange 😕

  • Some Chronic Pain 😢 Quotes that I wish weren’t true

    ELMWOOD CEMETARY MEMPHIS TENNESSEE

  • My Facial Pain has been causing recent Dental Issues..

    ELMWOOD CEMETARY MEMPHIS TENNESSEE

    Dear Max,

    Unfortunately 😔 severe facial pain can contribute to dental problems due to the pain caused by toothpaste. Just like the severe pain that it causes with most foods.

    Over the years, I have tried many kinds of toothpastes, hoping that one of them might not be as painful 😳  There have been toothpastes without floride, as well as baking soda, I have even tried oil pulling.

    Luckily, at this point, I am able to use Burts bees toothpastes. It is free of additives and dyes.

    However, in the recent few months, I have needed a root canal, which, as I speak, is now infected and quite painful 😒  The crown did not fit properly on the gums, so the dentist had to sew the gum together. Now, since the crown is not permanent, I am hoping that all his work will not be lost. 😪 when I go to get the permanent crown next week.

    Unfortunately, another very serious issue is that my insurance plan does not come with dental insurance 😕 I am certainly on a fixed income, and this particular infected gum around the root canal has cost me a great deal. 

    Although the infected root canal has been  likely needed for a long time.

    I will probably need another one on one of my top teeth 😬 which will be another EXTREME EXPENSE.

    Unfortunately, the novacaine also cause my facial pain to rise expanintally. not only does it affect my face but also my head, I feel extreme pressure in the area.

    All these dental and financial issues that come with are causing a great deal of stress and constant worry. 😪 which, of course, makes the facial pain worse every day.

    It seems that I am caught in a vicious cycle. Stress always tends to equal more pain, and more pain always leads to more stress 😩

    TO BE CONTINUED

  • Atypical Face Pain What is it? Short Video

    VERY SHORT VIDEO

  • Daily prompt. What is your favorite season of the year, and why?

    What is your favorite season of year? Why?

    My favorite seasons are late spring and early summer.

    Since Florida🌴 doesn’t have any seasons. I am taken back to when I was a little girl in Memphis during April, May, and June before it got too hot to enjoy the days and evenings.

    Walking around with no shoes.Feeling the cool grass as you wiggle your toes.🌿

    Butterflies were fluttering through the fresh air. 🦋The magical days and nights for a child when it began to get dark later and later, and the fireflies would start to come out, lighting up the night sky🌄

    The BBQs are on the patio on the weekends.🥩

    I  would play on my jungle gym as dad got the meat ready to grill.🥩 The delicious smell was wafting through the air. The cicadas are buzzing in the trees.🪰

    Running  through the sprinklers at dusk, Mom came outside with a warm towel. Knowing that I had at least an hour left to play because there was no school, at the end of the night, watching the sun slowly dip below the trees with the soft colors of orange, yellow, and red.🌄

    As well as the warm summer thunderstorms that would pop up, sometimes lulling me to sleep when I went to bed⛈️. Such wonderful memories of this magical time of year.

  • A Simple   Hobby…..Max the Cat photos…..

    Today, I decided to post about something that did not involve doctors or pain.

    MAX IN COLOR POP

    One of my hobbies, before all these medical things began, was to take photos of all my kitties 😸 I really enjoyed editing them, and I loved the challenge of trying to make them perfect 👌 I can still take some photos once in a while. Which still brings a little  pleasure to life.



    These photos 📸 were taken with my phone a while back. I did not particularly feel the need to invest in an extremely expensive camera.

    Max portrait for today 😀

  • Tegretal that Dr. EL-SAID gave me “does not work”

    On May 22, I went to see my third neurologist, Dr. El-Said. Dr. El-Said prescribed some tegretal or Carbamazepine because I had mentioned to him that it was very painful to eat or to brush my teeth.

    Dr. El-said then mentioned that this  sounded  like trigeminal neuralgia, possibly. He also said that the medication would work immediately for my pain if this was the issue.

    I went home 🏡 and was quite doubtful. Unfortunately, I had reason to be. I took the medication 💊 and it did not work at all. The medication actually seemed to make the pain worse. Once again, I was so disappointed 😞  but unfortunately, this was something I was used to.

    Unfortunately, once again, it seems that I am living in the movie Groundhog Day (where every treatment does not work).

    Dr. El-said wants a couple more tests. Another blood test and another mri. Honestly, I do not know what doing more tests will accomplish (since I had already given him quite a great deal of test results), and unfortunately, Mris are expensive

    Somedays, I even questioned myself, wondering if I am even on the right track. The only thing that I have been diagnosed with is spinal stenosis in my neck and upper shoulders by Dr. Jason Song (I have an entry further down about him) and the arthritis injections that he gave me)

    Unfortunately, the spinal stenosis is also quite painful.. (perhaps I should move towards the arthritis route) It has also been told to me quite frequently that I need a headache specialist instead of a neurologist. During my own research for a “headache specialist,” I haven’t found one online at this particular time.

    😪 Sadly, I feel quite tired 😫 of all these things as well as more confused as ever.

  • More doctors 😪  December 2023  Virtual appointment follow-up Luis Hurtado

    I will begin here in December 2023. I had a virtual follow-up visit with Dr. Luis Hurtado. Dr. Hurtado had ordered me to get a scan of my sinuses, so I had done that in November. Dr. Hurtado went over the scan, and unfortunately, the findings were acute sinus infection. I would find out later that this diagnosis was  incorrect. I mentioned to him that the muscle relaxer called Baclofen that he had given me wasn’t working. Dr. Hurtado still viametly believed it was sinus, so he told me to go back to the sinus doctor and that there was not  anything else he could do for me. I asked him if he could refer me to a pain doctor. Unfortunately, I am a bit foggy on his answer. However, I did not see a pain doctor afterward, so his answer must have been no. This was the end of Dr. Hurtado.. It was time for me to keep searching for help once again

  • Third Neurologist Appointment Today Unfortunately, there still is no diagnosis

    I am going to send you more tests and possibly refer you to other doctors. Honestly, trigeminal neuralgia is usually easier to treat than atypical facial pain

    Dear MAX,

    Hello Max, who is currently hiding in his cat tree 🌳 because I had to give medication for his current bowel trouble.

    On Tuesday morning 🌄 I saw yet another neurologist. The appointment took me quite a long time to get one of my twin helper girls who took me. They charge a fee, but that is alright. They have been lifesavers. I noticed that I had a tough time getting out of her car and also for the short walk to the office. (which is frightening)

    The doctors name is Dr. Reefat El-Said. I honestly did not have much hope for relief from this doctor either, I felt like I was just going through the motions again. However, Dr. El-Said was quite thorough and asked a lot of questions 🤔  I also had a lot of information for him to go over.

    I had “normal” bloodwork from the overnight stay in the hospital 🏥 I also had three MRIS (which were ordered by the “pain” arthritis doctor)

    After Dr. El-Said had finished asking me questions about my condition, He questioned me about my weight, which unfortunately has been dropping. The doctor then examined me quickly and told me that I definitely still had TMJ on the left side of my jaw.

    Fortunately, that’s when one of my symptoms came up, the mystery of why toothpaste, pills, or any kind of food aggravated the pain 😢

    Suddenly, the three people in the room began nodding their heads 😳  They mentioned that this was a symptom of Trigimina Neueolgia. So, instead of prescribing Lyrica, he prescribed a low dose of tegretal.

    Unfortunately, then came the words 😕 I dreaded. The doctor said he was going to send me for more tests and that he did not have a diagnosis for me now. When I heard those words, I felt sick to my stomach because I had heard them so many times before.

    Dr. El-Said wants me to come back in six weeks, which is actually on my 49th birthday with the tests finished

    The doctor ordered another Mri.this time of my lungs. As well as a specialist blood test.. If he found nothing, he was again going to refer me to someone else

    I felt the same sinking feeling 😕 of defeat when we left the office. As I have so many times before. The unfortunate feeling of complete hopelessness.

  • I feel so overwhelmed and guilty 😔

    How do you deal with guilt 😔? Especially when it involves your furry friend. I would advise against looking up the symptoms  on google that your furry friend is exhibiting. Doing so can certainly cause more worry than necessary. Especially if you are an excessive worrier or have a lot of anxiety.

    Also, when you have chronic pain, stress seems to make things a lot worse and the pain a lot stronger.