LIVING WITH CHRONIC PAIN WITH ANNA AND MAX

Revisting an entry from September 2024 (I lost my car) Not due to repossession.. due to the fact that it never moved

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Dear Max

I got 300 dollars for my car that I had to  sell to  the scrap yard. The other day, a vehicle that in 2004 I spent 9,000 for. To make it clear, it wasn’t repossessed. The apartment complex thought it was too ugly to sit in there lot, so they told me to either move it (which i couldn’t) or get rid of it. So I was forced to sell it.

I had a 1999 Toyota camry which I have had since around 2004. The car had low milage because it wasn’t driven much by me when it was in California or New Orleans (the ex always drove)

I can’t believe it’s gone. I had to make the decision quickly. It had been sitting in the apartment parking lot for a while.and it actually broke down a while ago. And of course, I am not able to drive (do due my chronic pain issue)

I got a notice from the apartment complex, which gave me only a few days to figure out what to do with it, or they were going to tow it.

I feel nervous without a car even though it would not run, and I can’t drive anyway.

I really do feel that the loss of that car that I’ve had for so many years that basically almost everything has been taken from me.

I could have lost max due to some serious medical issues that have been going on with him for the past few months. Due to this issue that no one can diagnose, I don’t have much more.left  Just a.small apartment. (although a roof over my head is definitely something) However, a car is quite a large item to lose, especially because of pain 😢

Perhaps someday, if I get any better, I should have been allowed to keep it here in the parking lot.

I pay an exorbitant amount of rent to .stay here. But now it’s in the scrap yard. Unfortunately, I feel very nostalgic for it 😢

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10 responses to “Revisting an entry from September 2024 (I lost my car) Not due to repossession.. due to the fact that it never moved”

  1. Woodsy Avatar
    Woodsy

    Someone said to me once when, among other things, I was struggling financially: “Don’t lose your car, because that’s your freedom.”

    Sometimes, when anxiety hits, my driving confidence is the first thing to go. Sometimes I simply son’t want the super-busy angst and impatience of certain roads. If I go travelling, it’s often a mix of trains (or whatever) and walking. I’m so not a natural driver…

    but sometimes, I would drive off somewhere just for the sense of freedom. I’d head somewhere, then stop in whatever place appealed to me, just to be sitting “somewhere else”, away from all the other stuff in my life. Maybe I’d sit and enjoy the view. Maybe I’d get out and walk around… or sit and watch the rain on the windscreen. It would be an escape. It would, like the guy said, be my freedom.

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    1. Anna Avatar
      Anna

      I love that too 😀 and you are right a car does equal freedom. I was really annoyed when I had to sell it for 300 dollars. The apartment complex just said it looked ugly because it never moved.

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      1. Woodsy Avatar
        Woodsy

        Given the situation you were in, that comment just looks insensitive. So nice to know people care about context.🙄

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      2. Anna Avatar
        Anna

        Oh dear which one

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      3. Woodsy Avatar
        Woodsy

        No, I mean it looks insensitive for them to have said your car looked ugly because it wasn’t moving.

        As if you’d chosen to be in a sucky situation that made you unable to drive.

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      4. Anna Avatar
        Anna

        Ah! Well, I just updated it. Maybe it will be clearer.. hardly anyone reads this far back anyway ( except I decided to put it towards the front). Thank you for reading it 😊

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      5. Anna Avatar
        Anna

        Perhaps I didn’t make myself clear in the entry

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    2. Anna Avatar
      Anna

      Oh it’s not like the car was repossessed. It was fully paid for that’s another thing that makes me mad

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      1. Woodsy Avatar
        Woodsy

        I can only imagine how frustrating it was.

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      2. Anna Avatar
        Anna

        Yes, quite maddening!

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