Dear Max, I wish I could sleep. Painsomnia seems to be a fancy word for not being able to sleep due to pain.
😴 To tell you the truth, Max, sometimes I get a little jealous when I see you sleeping peacefully 😴

Dear Max, I wish I could sleep. Painsomnia seems to be a fancy word for not being able to sleep due to pain.
😴 To tell you the truth, Max, sometimes I get a little jealous when I see you sleeping peacefully 😴

Always been kind of a night owl, and generally find it hard to get to sleep… so if there’s some reason I’m supposed to get up early the next day, I set an alarm to make sure… and hope I don’t wake up so tired that I curl up after turning the alarm off.
it’s 2am here now, and I am tempted to go outside just to feel some night air and soak up the stillness.
I did for a bit. It’s weird, because it gives me a special sense of space which is really precious to me.
On the flipside, I have also had a heightened sense of alone-ness lately, which I have been struggling with. But that again can sometimes be easier to handle at night, when it almost sometimes feels like I have a private world of my own to drop into…
if that makes sense.
Yes, actually, I can understand that. Needing a sense of space. I am sorry 😞 you seem to be feeling alone. It definitely makes sense
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I have struggled so much with things like anxiety and depression in the past, when thing felt too twisted and sad and unsolvable… when somehow, looking at it, the world itself felt like that… and it’s left my body screaming with little alarm bells, telling me not to try heading down a path that heads nowhere.
Often, the days when I fight back are fuelled by an unexpected torch shining with my name on. Perhaps the smallest of things that someone has plucked from my words and handed to me… perhaps simply a shared hope.
You are dealing with so much, and can still be that hope to others. You were to me this week. After everything I have seen in this world, every beauty from the tiniest, cuddliest carpet of hillside moss to the wildest flock of fresh-born rivers galloping down the mountains to the sea… little compares to that.
It was great 😃
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